i have a feeling of quitting CO.
tired and sick of this feeling, but still i will stay. hope that lihui and pei en wont go.
decided that i wont change the subject combination thing, moreover the time's up.

am wondering, if twenty years passed from now, will i already be a pianist,
looking back to "now" and laugh, saying :why am i so silly? why dont i just quit CO?
am wondering that will i be able to take up pipa lessons?
am wondering what if i fail my piano theory exam next year?
am wondering why am i so pessimistic now.

maybe because today everything seemed lost.
maybe because pei en and lihui never come.
maybe because i keep playing wrongly, i feel like an idiot somehow.
maybe because i have depression/attitude probs/sudden sense of anxiety.



maybe because i dont know whats my responsibility, where my future is.

Hey there.
Serena, child of God manufactured on 121093 who appreciates music and art. Loves alot of guy superstars, and too many stuffs on her wishlist to share here. Fat. Doesn't have time-management skills. Very into drama marathons.
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