the last is EIGHTY FIFTH.

this is the eighty sixth. (:

feeling rather gloomy... emo?

nope i guess its because of that sentence that came from zhoulaoshi today.

"为什么会越坐越远呢?"

i cant judge, from where i am standing,

just like when i test my eyesight, reading the 'blurred' board.
and i also dont have the right to judge.
but never mind, i dont care anymore.

some days earlier, was feeling emo. (?)
i wonder why during the holidays, this familiar feeling came back to haunt me once again.
i said to myself, that Heavenly Father doesnt want to see all these.
i tried to smile but yet all seemed so, unreal.
and i became quite of a sadistic person(?) ,wonder why.
maybe i am starting to try to stand up for myself. in a wrong way i guess.
but now i am going to smile, truly from my heart. because i am going to learn more from God,
i promise to myself i will be a Christian worthy of Him (:

lately i realised how unappreciative i am,
whether it is towards my pipa seniors or brande or my parents ):
cried because of that, stupid serena -.-


whatever! ENOUGH OF THIS CRAP! now i will update (:
i bought 200 pounds beauty and isabelle bought 'brave story'.
both are so nice man, at the end of the 200 pounds beauty i nearly cried, touched!
and erm, watched enchanted and stayed in the royal plaza hotel on saturday(:
enchanted is like, funny, classical, and erm... out of the box? :D
will post the pics of the hotel some other time.
...and this time i wont make a promise in case i break it again-.-

I WANT TO FINISH MY MATHS AND ENGLISH AND GEOG!