H1 GP,
THEN H2 ECONS,
THEN NO TEST,
THEN H2 CHEM,
THEN H2 MATHS AND H1 GEOG ON THE SAME DAY.

That's the schedule.

I think that the Internet is evil.

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You wanna make me improve my Econs by leaps in like, today plus follwoing days = 6days.
(Actually I wanted it.)
Then, Geog and Math, ON THE SAME BLOODY DAY.
Wow, that sounds... Welcoming. Welcome to JC life? ...Or what?

Kay great I've wasted the whole morning on sleeping, tv, (piano), and A LITTLE FB.
Welcome to Serena's life?
Yesterday night ate ice cream plus Thosai plus that Milo Dinosaur at the next-door "restaurant".

Interesting life, isn't it. I'm gonna meet Pikhuei later to pass her some SS and Geog notes/TYS.
I don't daresay I'm gonna do my homework now.
But I need to! BAH.

I want to have a life. Like literally rot at home, watch movies on Funshion, go (window-)shopping, maybe sit down in an outdoor Starbucks' seat drinking some Mochaccino or whatever, and ... Okay what am I talking about. Nonsense.

I don't like what I am now. Out of the JC routine/aspirations-route. Out of any ordinary girl's routine where I think I should be thinking more of like, gentle stuffs or shit or whatever. I think that I am just... Out. Like really out. I spout vulgarities like I breathe. I run away from studying like how I run away from God, like how I breathe. Everything is like shit now, and I am so very insecure and confused of what to do. I am scared that I am damned of good results, but on the other hand I think I deserved that because I never study, and I panick and I feel like studying, but everytime there's this fucking laptop in front of me. I wish that we can crash laptops temporarily and maybe call out Doraemon to fix it. So that I can study....

But I cannot study like forever, and everytime I'll be OUT of what I'm supposed to do and I'll go running elsewhere to do other shit that I'm not supposed to....

OUT like really OUT. Okay I dont know what the fuck I'm saying, sorry God, I need to slap my mouth. I need to slap myself awake that I am in YJC, there's nothing to be ashamed about. Be ashamed only where God is like everywhere and yet you're like running away and igonoring the fact that God can help you. I don't have to act up in PW because of someone I don't like. I need to remember that I CAN PRAY. I need to read my ODJ. I need to PUT IN EFFORT TO STUDY.

I think that's enough. I think I am going to study now.

Hey there.
Serena, child of God manufactured on 121093 who appreciates music and art. Loves alot of guy superstars, and too many stuffs on her wishlist to share here. Fat. Doesn't have time-management skills. Very into drama marathons.
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