Friday, December 31, 2010 @ 7:59 AM
Okay so I woke up today again at this time because my mother needs to go to work. I woke up and suddenly thought of something that really scares me. That I have fallen in love with you.
No it's not that him or anything but some guy. That guy. Shingz/Shit. I dont want it to be because of his face, I want it to be because of the character. But this time, I think both of this appeals to me. I DONT KNOW WHY but I decided to sort my thoughts online, especially here since I neglected Blogger a lot ;/
Okay. ...
I dont know whether I should post this or not. I am scared, that somehow someone might just find out my blog and leading to finding out my darkest secrets which I am not really ready to share, yet/period.
Okay so he's in my group and has been caring.
I dont know whether he is caring is because I am also in choir or what. And also because he is, the leader. LOL. (Shit is it really appropriate to talk here. LOL I think you might be thinking that might as well dont share here la. But, oh well.)
He initiates convos, he also always initiates to sit beside me. He always pays attention and sit very close to me whenever I share/just normal talk in the group.
So I think there are a few instances when our group needs to clear the breakfast table, or rather the table after breakfast lol. But I think I conveniently forgot about that an I was somewhere else.
And I am feeling guilty throughout the camp. And I keep sneaking glances at him, ARGH. Is it because he also looks cute? Like really. He has this face that reminds me of chipmunks, I DONT KNOW WHY ALRIGHT.
And yesterday when I saw some pictures of the rehearsals for the church service on Christmas Eve, that warm feeling suddenly gushed through me and I realised that I dont dare/too shy to look at his virtual face. LOL I know it's a bit LOL but, yeah thats the story.
I am still guilty after the camp when I posted that previous post below. And still guilty now. And also guilty for that sneak peeks, what if he thinks I'm weird or something. ARGH.
Shit you mosquitoes.