I just deactivated my Facebook account in the midst of playing some games, and woah, it did felt kinda relieving.

I'm BLOODY TIRED from all the events and the schedule that I'm having.
Choir. Church choir. Church. Piano. Make-up tuition, since we are having Sat pracs nowadays. Baptism class. Crap. I really do feel that I'm falling to pieces.

Failed Napfa 2.4km by 1 min, sit-ups and SBJ. Like, some weeks ago. Whatever, was so stressed out that I kept crying and stromed out of PE lessons. Lame right I know.

Straight Us for Econs CA. Like including today's test which, somehow I kinda mixed up the time slot of the lesson, I came in like 40 mins late and only did part a and submitted my paper. Urgh, should redo again. And she kept commenting in my tests and homework that I dint put in effort and should strike a balance between cca and work. But what the hell. It's SYF. And Mdm Koh our dear principal WANTS US TO GET A SILVER, although she dint say it directly. And she wants to talk to my mother, and me after blocks.

Which I want to say that blocks are next week. And I highly doubt that they will not have choir prac. And seriously, I'm so dead that I really really dont feel like studying.

Recently I think I (might) have contracted a certain mental illness that I'm highly and purely repulsive of people's talking, especially my family and friends in school. Like c'mon Serena what the hell is wrong with you.

And Miss Ong is 'disappointed' in me. "People study harder in JC2 and you slack in JC2 instead".

I'm kinda feeling that maybe that type of reverse psychology, including TSH's, may and is starting to work on me. That may be the primary reason why I deactivated my account whoohoo.

I think I threw face, ALOT of times in school choir. Sigh. Dont feel like mentioning it. BLEH. Next time do things must use brain plan first. Like now, for A levels. I'm freaking scared.

But I'm now even more scared because a large part of me is staying ignorant and nonchalent. Dunno what to do in the future, dont feel like doing anything.
When will you grow up Serena?

Hey there.
Serena, child of God manufactured on 121093 who appreciates music and art. Loves alot of guy superstars, and too many stuffs on her wishlist to share here. Fat. Doesn't have time-management skills. Very into drama marathons.
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