Monday, May 23, 2011 @ 3:05 PM
There's another, YET ANOTHER
U for Econs again.
That feeling came back to strangle all that's optimistic in me, leaving me with dread and doom for A levels.
How/what am I supposed to do? Yes, it calls for time-management. I though I would really do better. Like at least, get an S and get my ass off U for once, just once. But now, how/what am I supposed to do? I know my question sounds really weird. But the thing is, I think I know what I should really do = START STUDYING WAY BEFORE TESTS AND STOP DREAMING AND DEMORALISING MYSELF.
But the thing is, I'm not motivated to do anything at all. No shit interests me at the moment, except Dong Yi LOL. I'm planning to do revision once I finish this drama.
I signed up for a table at A1-01. Haven't use yet. Should start using yeah.
Saturday was Arts Fusion. Hmmm. Was surreal. Friday was Salvador Dali and Van Gogh, even more surreal, shall elaborate when I feel like it. Yesterday was church and tuition. Hmmm. Today was Cham SPA, felt shiok for once.
I feel like running into a wall, full force.
Or maybe find somewhere to cry my lungs out to clear my mind and heart and face the damned reality that I SUCK AT STUDIES, CAUSE I DINT PUT IN ANY EFFORT AT ALL.
Shit, happens, happened, ):
But I will not, AND I MEAN NOT LET THIS CONTINUE. I SWEAR.